Smile, it's a new day.

I'm tired. So Edan's birthday is tomorrow. I'm going to buy him some deodorant lol cause he claims it's the only thing he wants. Sometimes I want to punch him in the head for being so wise! Grr! So I've decided to give up swearing. =X I've realized that I sometimes have no self control, and that my opinions come off strong sometimes lol. Jenn and Hai helped me a great deal today. Thanks yall<3. My federal taxes came in! Woo hoo! I want to chip in half for a TV for my dad. =\ I wish I had a better paying job! So I looked at Amherst's application again. Still contemplating. I've made a decision to apply, just waiting for my grades to get in! I'm nervous, I feel like that philosophy paper did not do the job! I'm hoping for a B in that class =X

I'm waiting for these weeks to soar by. I'm wanting summer to go by fast too, I dont know, I'm not in the "Alyson" mood right now. Feeling a little upset. Upset is my new night time feeling. I should really start on my Stanley project. No motivation to do it though. I'm going to sleep in tomorrow, life goes by faster that way. Then I get to go to work, yay! Work is like my new escape from reality, it makes me happier when I'm there. Surprisingly, cause I hated my job like 3 weeks ago. Bleh. I think I might buy a wii. Yea, I'm going to talk to my dad about that. He's been very supportive lately. Idk. I wish I could be home alone. I lost 6 lbs. Funny thing is, I dont know where. Haha. I need to remmeber to take my medicine. My eyeballs started hurting again, and my hands have been shaking. Blech. But then the one time I ate today, I feel like i stuffed myself o_o. So I probably gained back a pound. I learned to curl my hair in like 10 minutes. Woo hoo!

I want to go back to Arizona. I wonder what my cousins are doing this summer.
Maybe today will be a better day.

Peace&Love