Smile, it's a new day.

I'm tired. So Edan's birthday is tomorrow. I'm going to buy him some deodorant lol cause he claims it's the only thing he wants. Sometimes I want to punch him in the head for being so wise! Grr! So I've decided to give up swearing. =X I've realized that I sometimes have no self control, and that my opinions come off strong sometimes lol. Jenn and Hai helped me a great deal today. Thanks yall<3. My federal taxes came in! Woo hoo! I want to chip in half for a TV for my dad. =\ I wish I had a better paying job! So I looked at Amherst's application again. Still contemplating. I've made a decision to apply, just waiting for my grades to get in! I'm nervous, I feel like that philosophy paper did not do the job! I'm hoping for a B in that class =X

I'm waiting for these weeks to soar by. I'm wanting summer to go by fast too, I dont know, I'm not in the "Alyson" mood right now. Feeling a little upset. Upset is my new night time feeling. I should really start on my Stanley project. No motivation to do it though. I'm going to sleep in tomorrow, life goes by faster that way. Then I get to go to work, yay! Work is like my new escape from reality, it makes me happier when I'm there. Surprisingly, cause I hated my job like 3 weeks ago. Bleh. I think I might buy a wii. Yea, I'm going to talk to my dad about that. He's been very supportive lately. Idk. I wish I could be home alone. I lost 6 lbs. Funny thing is, I dont know where. Haha. I need to remmeber to take my medicine. My eyeballs started hurting again, and my hands have been shaking. Blech. But then the one time I ate today, I feel like i stuffed myself o_o. So I probably gained back a pound. I learned to curl my hair in like 10 minutes. Woo hoo!

I want to go back to Arizona. I wonder what my cousins are doing this summer.
Maybe today will be a better day.

Peace&Love

Happy Mother's Day

I havent been keeping up with this blog lately. =[[ Sorry blog. Three days of classes left, and yet, no motivation. Four papers due within a week, 2 within 3 days and yet no motivation. I've lost close to all my appetite, thank god I had work today so food could revolve around me, but I shared a kids meal instead. I got my hair did. I really like it. I wish it could be a tad lighter, but I like it alot. I start my drawing class in two weeks. Not excited yet. I just want to draw a big black hole and dive into it. I have work tomorrow, Im going to miss GossipGirl. I also have a paper to almost completely redo. Then I hvae to wake up around 6am on Tuesday. I planned starting and close to finishing it today, but I was finishing Edans invitations. Oh well, I'll rewrite it during philosophy class tomorrow.

On a lighter note... Happy Mother's Day! I wish I couldve gotten my mother that crystal cow! But my dad said its ugly T_T so we bought her a wireless mouse instead. She wasnt happy. Shes never happy. My dad says she needs more fun in her life. I wish we got along. Because if we did, I could make her laugh everyday like I make my dad laugh. But I finished making Edan's invitations today. So happy, I'm finally done! Everyone of them carefully glued, cut, written with love. I also ordered his present (sshh!) I hope he likes it. I cant wait to redo my closet. My mom says daddys going to make new shelves for my shoes! That means closet space! Which also means shopping so I can fill that space! Still waiting for my tax returns. I want to buy my dad a TV really bad. Should I get a credit card? I also want things for myself, but oh well.

It's going to be nice all week. I hope I have time to go out. When people draws me pictures, it makes me happy. I've been very forgetting lately. Ive also felt empty minded and confused. The cooks from work got angry with me today because I forgot to say hi when I walked past them. Im usually a over energized little girl around them that make them coffee and strawberry lemonade slushies hahas. But the nice one really scared me when he attacked me for not saying hi. It made me sad inside. Hahaha Hai just cheered me up with a random text "Im watching tv and i see something hovering from the wall! I thought it was a spider but then it flies very slowly AHH!" LOOOL. Ive been waking up really early lately. And I wake up like 10 times during the night. Funky. Go celtics.

Sorry this entry seemed boring random and annoying, I just wanted to update it, I tried being upbeat, but I guess Im tired or something. Hmm I promise next entry will be more exciting :D like that spider monkey Hai saw hahahs. Hope everyone is smooth sailing in life with happiness.

Alright gootnight
Peace&Love